You are overwhelmed with self doubt.
It is as if you are in an emotional drought.
Your eyelids are completely dry
Because you have run out of tears to cry.
You have no energy anymore;
All the negative emotions make you sore.
You feel so torn.
You are just flat out worn.
You keep getting knocked down hard,
Leaving you bruised and scarred.
You just want to give in,
But at the same time you DON’T WANT TO LET SATAN WIN.
You know God is your Savior and light.
It’s just so easy to lose sight.
Why is He letting terrible things happen to me?
Doesn’t He listen and see?
He talks of lavishing his love;
He talks of being as pure as a dove
You think the storm won’t quit,
BUT then the light is lit.
For a miracle is born.
He comes to save your heart that’s worn.
He leaps into your heart
Not letting Satan himself rip it apart.
He whispers that you are His son or daughter
Then proves it by walking on water.
He then changes your entire life,
Cutting away your loneliness like a knife.
He forgives you and enables you
And enables you to forgive yourself too.
With Him we are changed forever
Because our Lord is so brilliant and clever.
He somehow knows everything about you.
In fact, we have absolutely no clue.
He sent His one and only son
Because of all the sin we had done.
We are unworthy of that kind of compassion,
but our Father has perfect passion.
He presents us with a second chance.
Heaven seems like an unfathomable trance.
Because of this love, I know with certainty…
I will one day be with my Father, my Savior, for all of eternity.
Anxiety grasped control of my life around middle school and clenched its’ grasp harder as high school rolled around. It is a daily battle that I face. The picture above holds a deep meaning to me as it symbolizes many things. One, I am in the middle of a forest. Many people find comfort in nature, but I am the opposite. I find comfort in a coffee shop or in a book store. When I am in a forest my anxiety spikes. The darkness and unknown that surrounds me in a forest represents all my fears. The location of the picture is also in my grandmother’s backyard. It is where I had the best of times with my aunt and the worst of times. This picture captures a lot of hurt, but notice I am not looking down nor am I tense. I am looking towards the heavens at my Savior. Amidst all the darkness that circumstances and anxiety brings symbolized by the forest surrounding me, I am able to look up. I know that that is the only way I will conquer this beast…through God’s help. Anxiety has won many battles, but I am ready to win the war.
A couple verses that have helped me in times of panic are the following:
“Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.”
“We can confidently say, ‘The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?’”
“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.”
—1 Peter 5:5-7
“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”